10 March 2006

The Value Added Tax (VAT) did it.

Months ago, Mon had already decided that our formal pamamanhikan will be on October 2005. Right after he takes the Bar Exams for lawyers on September 2005. However, that was it. For several months now, I had been content with this. At least we were getting somewhere and we were not just vaguely planning our wedding.

Then, last week, I got a text message. Apparently, his parents visited him in Manila and they had time to talk about his plans. I do not really know what went on with the conversation but it prompted him to text me that I should be in Manila on the 26th of March, on his brother’s birthday. It was only a couple of days before the said date that it became clear to me that we would be going to Tagaytay and already set some certainty to our plans.

So, on the 26th of March, I decided to go to Manila. In my car, alone, it truly was a nerve wrecking eight-hour drive to the Petron Station at the South Luzon Tollway at Muntinlupa area where we agreed to meet. We immediately proceeded to Tagaytay where we went to Caleruega near the Tagaytay-Nasugbu boundary.

In Caleruega, we decided to hold the wedding on a Friday, considering that all Saturdays before March 16, 2006 were already taken. It was a choice between the 3rd and the 10th of March. After first deciding that its going to be the third, I decided to make it the 10th after a conversation with my Mom who said the 10th is more auspicious.

What’s with March 16? Apparently, Sev, Mon’s brother who is working in a travel agency said that accommodation rates go up after the 16th of March.

Why the sudden rush after a long idle lull? Well, Mon wanted to beat the skyrocketing of prices recently. Fuel prices go up almost every week and consequently with that the rates of suppliers. We also have to consider that our suppliers might charge extra considering that ours is a destination wedding.

So, eventually, the VAT did it… Hmm… there goes another incidental advantage to the rising of taxes.

Another Glitch

I don't know what came into Monching yesterday. He was once again on one of his intuitive moods and he told me that he might not take the bar this September.

What!!!!????

I really can't understand this man?!!!

Alright, I understand his anxiety and everything but not taking the bar this year would result to many things being moved. Like... our wedding... which until now is not yet settled anyway.

So I told him, wait a minute? How about the pamamanhikan on October? And the wedding next year?

"Well, it has to wait." was his answer.

It thought we were over that issue already. How unfair it was for me to wait and wait without a specific time-frame, etc... etc.. etc...

My eyes started to feel watery again. Am I really this unmarriagable? Why is he not jumping the gun and marrying me for God's sake? Is it really his baseless fear of poverty if he won't pass the bar before he marries? or is it just me? I really don't understand!

I had to count to ten again just so I don't flare up. I had to keep my cool. I just told him what I tell myself. I would just go on everyday as if we never planned anything. It's crazy to dream and dream and plan and plan... together... mind you... only to be set aside come implementation time. It's a waste of one's money and time, not to mention emotions spent in dreaming... dreaming and more dreaming.

Then, last night, while smoking our after-dinner cigarettes, and I hummed the song "if somebody loves you... its no good unless he loves you... all the way...." he said "I like that song. It sometimes makes me cry." Hmmm...

This morning I told him I was going to Tagaytay. "What are you going to do there?" I told him I was going to finally book the earliest wedding date we could get for next year. "Are you going to Tagaytay alone?" yeah, I answered. "Let's just go later at 4.30pm so I can go with you." that's too late, I answered. I will go alone. "Just call them, didn't the girl at Caleruega said that they can accept bank transfers?" hmm... good idea... after a moment... I got confused. What happened to the "wedding would have to wait bit"?

I don't know why I still am with him. After all this uncertainty I should be breaking up with him... don't you think. But love is not about loving a perfect person, but loving an imperfect person perfectly.

Weddings... weddings... weddings...

My cousin Darling just got married to Indoy last Saturday, April 30, 2005. My cousin was only 19 years old. I was part of the entourage as the Candle Sponsor.

I am really amazed at my cousin's "lakas ng loob". She got pregnant last January but lost the baby in a few weeks having a blighted ovum. From February to April, she prepared a wedding which even if simple was executed in a grand scale. She had only 40 days to prepare the wedding but it came out quite fine.

My brother and her girl-friend Rita is also preparing for a wedding. They just had their first fitting. I saw the pictures and they both look great. They had it made in Binondo by Fe Moreno. My brother looked really dashing in his tuxedo. My sister in law also looked great. Maganda ang fit and even if it was just a pic on my bro's celfon, you can see that the good quality of the clothes.

Weddings... weddings... weddings everywhere. While everyone around me is preparing for everything, here I am with still no date for the wedding. The pamamanhikan shall be in October after Mon takes the bar... again... hahay! I will be going to Tagaytay one of this days and finalize everything.

Naaawa na tuloy ako sa blog ko. Wala naman akong nailalagay. -sigh-